Gratitude is Enough

I am a striver, an  achiever and tend to be a Type A controller of my life and surroundings. When given devastating news 20 weeks into my pregnancy that my baby was unlikely to live, I panicked and fell apart. After a good 24 hours of feeling sorry for myself and grieving for my unborn child, I was done.

I called upon family and friends. I told my mom she needed to help me- to pray for healing for my baby because I wasn’t strong enough. Friends and friends of friends shared our situation with their churches and prayer groups. Hundreds of people rallied around our baby.

On May 24th she was born miraculously healthy. No breathing support other than a little bit of oxygen was needed and surgery wasn’t necessary upon delivery, two things we had expected could happen. She was checked over, stayed in the neonatal intensive care unit a few days, and released from the hospital before I was.

These circumstances made me pinch myself. It was incredible to have everything we had prayed for come true. She was healthy, surgery was not immediately needed and we were able to take her home with us.

What could I do? I was almost frantic with my thanks to God, striving to prove we were worthy of this amazing gift. I couldn’t even write this without crying- tears of relief and gratitude for this child who the doctor said may not live. At the first 3D ultrasound, I couldn’t stand to look at her face thinking it might be the only time I would see her alive, but couldn’t tear my eyes away for the same reason.

As I frantically prayed my thanks, I felt a sense of peace telling me that gratitude is enough. There is nothing that I have done or anything that I can do that will ever be able to “repay” or prove myself worthy. Gratitude is enough.

Thank you, God, for this beautiful gift.

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  1. Isn’t it freeing to realize that it’s not up to us whether or not we’re blessed! He loves us so much!

    And congratulations on a beautiful baby. Her little cheeks are so sweet!

  2. Such a beautiful illustration of the grace of God!

  3. I really think everything happens for a reason. I’m just glad we don’t have to know the reason. We can simple give thanks 🙂

    • HelloMyNameisShanna says:

      Something I’ve had to learn to do. I think God can make the best of a difficult situation.

  4. I love you all so much. I am so blessed to have you in my life, and to have witnessed all of this was amazing. You. YOU and your grace and your strength and belief in the power of God’s love and grace…. amazing. Your beautiful daughter and the miracle that she is….amazing.

    I love this post. Gratitude is enough. My heart is full.

    • HelloMyNameisShanna says:

      Thank you, Jenn. I love you, too, and am so thankful to have you. Thanks for being such a rock of support and letting me cry it out when it all got to be too much.

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